Am the Music Meister B*

Synopsis
The Music Meister uses his power to hypnotically force heroes and villains alike to assist him in launching a communications satellite and expand his power across the globe, and only Batman can stop him.

Neil Patrick Harris(Guest stars) -The Music Meister
Dee Bradley Baker -Clock King
Jeff Bennett -Batman (singing voice)
Grey DeLisle -Black Canary
John DiMaggio -Gorilla Grodd
Kevin Michael Richardson -Black Manta
Diedrich Bader -Batman/Bruce Wayne
John DiMaggio -Aquaman
James Arnold Taylor -Green Arrow

Music:
* I'm the Music Meister: Music by: Michael McCuistion; Lyrics by: James Tucker; Performed by: Neil Patrick Harris
* Drives Us Bats: Music by: Lolita Ritmanis; Lyrics by: Michael Jelenic; Performed by: Neil Patrick Harris
* Death Trap: Music by: Kristopher Carter; Lyrics by: James Tucker; Performed by: Neil Patrick Harris & Grey Delisle
* If Only: Music by: Lolita Ritmanis; Lyrics by: Michael Jelenic; Performed by: Neil Patrick Harris & Grey Delisle
* The World is Mine: Music by: Kristopher Carter; Lyrics by: Michael Jelenic; Performed by: Neil Patrick Harris, Grey Delisle & Jeff Bennett
* If Only (Reprise): Music by: Lolita Ritmanis; Lyrics by: Michael Jelenic; Performed by: Grey Delisle & James Arnold Taylor

Its Stuck in my Head AHHHHHHHHH

( you dont have to answer all lol sorry)- Dont Know what the hell am talking about then heres the show and its soundtrack

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May 4,2009- post help you to achieve success. Do not count on others to help you -- you can only trust in your own strength. Although you may feel vulnerable right now.

April 22, 2009-

ok am going to write a list of things i need to do in my life if i can fully grow as a person

1. get a job- now i work but its usually internships that don't pay and volunteer work, i need to learn the responseibilty of a working class person( thanks to some great friends with there help i am able to get applications not i just need to try and do them....)-(edit) Still in progress And Postponed due to college

2.get a state ID- i want to get the license to drive and feel a bit grown up, lol i wanna drive around town with my friends-(edit)Got it now i just need a permit [fail the test twice :(]

3.look for a college and get accpeted- now i havent heard from any college and am a little worry but i just hope i can make it in to one and finally improve my education and find what i want to do in life, maybe i should do physicology and maybe medical technolgy or an social service but am afraid my emotions would get in to my work so maybe an enviornmental or political enviornmentalist-(edit) well i got in to college...but didnt get to pick a major so its in progress.

4.FIND A DORM OR AN APARTMENT AND MOVE OUT- now i know this may seem am moving to fast but being in my home is as stressful then breaking up. I need to women up and get out beside i like living for mmy self but food maybe a problem.-(edit)Postponed and i give my self till next 2 years to get out...food is still a issue!

5.find a hobby that would keep me active- i want to do kick boxing or muy thai or shadowkon , have alot of agression i want to vent using my body.-(edit) ugh! postponed i got friends who know this stuff and i still havent set up the time to do it with them >.<

6.go all out- i want to try crazy (legal) stuff because i know that life is only young once-(edit)...i give my self till next 3 years

7.Face fear- i want to face my mom and address our problem that we had so long and if she can't listen then she wont hear from me again.-(edit)its a waste of my time talking to that women so its just silence now.

8.graduitiude- i want to treat out my friends who stand by me in supportiveness and kindness-(edit) Honestly i fail at this but i can try again

9.meeting up with the past- i want to search for my long lost sister, i want to see the person who go seperated from me during my foster care years, it feels i need to gain my connect of my family.-(edit) Success and completed, whats cool about this is not only did i found her but i found out i got another sister and a older brother AND a niece and two nefews what a shock.

10.travel- i want to go to japan first and travel the world-(edit) postponed and i think japan will be third after i visit korean and germany.

11.being confident- i want to do something great in people lives what ever it may be-(edit)FAIL - i guess ill try again

12.spilurge -i want to go all out shopping-(edit)postponed until i get a job.

13.changing habits- i want to turn someone life around-(edit) i highly doubt this since it back fired so amma try again and postponed this

14.nationality- i want to gain a huge diversity of friends-(edit)well am starting to get friends from different places so its in progress

15. religously- keep going to church and pray and maybe one day do a missionary work-(edit)We'll see if i can do this, am starting to have second thoughts but i wouldnt mind volunteering.

16.Comapion- i want to get a pet any species but not spiders eeek lol-(edit) Success! i have a Cat name Sue and you can say shes like me. But i want another pet hoping for a puppy or iguana.

17.make wrong right- i want to confront anyone i did wrong and make a new beginning-(edit)fail, it only end up in silence so amma try again in the future hopefully , i give my self next year to do that.

18.stand up for your right- i want to keep being a activist of peace and hope for a better future-(edit) doing a project at y school that have a similar goal so its semi-check

19. be on tv or in a maginzine- i want to show any special talent that i have to the world or milliions of people and maybe conquer my fear of stage frieght.-(edit)I highly doubt that since i still despise being in front of people but doesnt hurt to look forward in the future.

20.try gymnastic- i use to be flexiable and still is a little but when i was small i wanted to do this so hopefully i do a class like this or yoga.-(edit) postponed when i get a exercise partner then you"ll see.

21.this should be at the top/taking chances- I want to be able to respond more quickly and grab what ever opporunity jumps like the movie yes man lol-(edit) i took one chance it wasn"t bad even thought i didnt get it , i held my head up and smile like a champ. I'll be waiting for more in progress.

22.marriage- i want to finally settle down and be happy with who ever i maybe with and have kids independently or not.-(edit) am not sure if i want to or be in a relationship :(.

23.party- go clubbling a little or a concert.-(edit) in progress I miss my first chance to go to a club so maybe next time i'll get the chance.

24.cosplay- iwant to cosplay and go to all kinds of anime conventions.-(edit)fail, but i keep trying even though it seems far in my life time!

25.donations- i want to donate 1,000 dollars to an organization of a good cause.-(edit) thats in the future so its postponed

26.underground trend- i want to be a hacker,inventor, steam punk and be a sexy geek.-(edit)....yeah probably in the next 3 yrs maybe?

well thats it for now i might update later and hopefully i can follow through with this.

-.- dont ask why its back

I realize a few things in my abesent! I don't know how to express or vent out my feelings, all it does is hold in and make me kinda isolate from people
2 FUCKING SPEECH CLASS- is funny vause i ahve to do a demonstrative speech on creating a blog UGH!
3 i was looking back at some old text messages that back up in my email and i found one that seems to i guess made me think differently? It help me remember why i dont tell my thoughts out but instead write it out. This was MAY 19 2009 "with my blog am scare of see my self as a bad person, things i write i know it hurt people and its just plain wrong if i dont want to share it, i care more about you then to let you see my ugly mind" but when i look at the response it was Leave it up....you shouldn't silence yourself for me"...so that it.
4 i realize i love writing in my blog so why not and have it up, its the only thing i ever stuck to since drawing and poetry
5 i know your reading this who ever and i want to say thanks for being my friend even though i piss you off and didnt try hard as you want, even though i was a ..? Weak-minded person you still delt with me so thank and the same goes to who ever too.
6 Am not doing well in college but am trying i guess,i do get worry for my friends and wish i could check on them.
7 Am gonna make a promise to my self that i know i could keep and that will be is to take life either a step or a huge leap. I want to change but for the better. Am hoping that i get to do big things in my life and not stray away from silly things.
I miss you guys all of you very dearly even though we had rocky times , i wish you guys would know how much i cared and wish things never happen to be close to you guys. Jerks or not your still somebody i sorta look up to. I mean who would deal with my drama and emotions for this long lol thanks.

....moving on cough* i had a dust in my eye OK

Green Me

Break down

i just wanna be alone and live out for my self.
it feels like its not worth the trouble to have friends anymore or explaining my self.
am done with people, am done with drama and back stabbers i just want to be my own.
all i can do now is just stress out and hope for the better cause really i never deserve this. i don't want to hear anything from the next few days then my own thoughts and am going to shut out all the negativity.I don't need nobody or their advices.


am glad to know thats god is watching me as i suffer finical, mentally, physical and verbally. thanks everyone who played a part. know am just gonna struggle and fight it off. With this blog being invisible so will i.

THE END.

If my feelings offend you enough there you go i remove it but honesty i doubt you would care about what i think anyway. i said my apologie and that enough but i always know that you can never speak for your self you will always have someone to speak about how you feel but never your self and with that it will be your failure. Cause am done putting my self out for your round about bullshit.

one and only by timberland

i feel like ugh..... heres a song


"One & Only"
(feat. Fall Out Boy)

[Verse 1 - Timbaland]
I get over heels for someone (I)
That I really can't deal with (deal with)
I want to block her out my mind
But I really can't do it
I tell myself this the last time
I'ma let her do this to me
Whenever we do spend time
I realize that I can't get enough of you

[Bridge - Patrick Stump (Timbaland)]
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Let me say to you)

[Chorus (Patrick Stump):]
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
I'm the inside of "I don't care"
Right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
I'm the inside of "I don't care"
Be my unholy
My one and my lonely

[Verse 2 - Patrick Stump]
I wear scarves and hoods
'Cause it's the only poker face that I've got left
And everything I love about you is a mess
Smash the mirror and break the palm reader's hand
I want to be better than I am

[Bridge - Patrick Stump (Timbaland)]
(Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Let me say to you)

[Chorus (Patrick Stump)]

[Verse 3 - Timbaland]
Girl, just look what you've done
How could you do this to me?
I gotta put my foot down
I can't let you do this to me
I can't forget those good ole times
And all the things you've been doing to me
I wanna hit that one more time
I mean love, what your doing to me
I'ma say it loud, right here
Let's fuck in this crowd
Why we arguing
I thought me and you were supposed to be
Friends
Let's chill for minute
Better yet we could heal for a minute (for a minute)
Baby, put down the knife
Sometime I wanna save ya life
Why don't you

[Chorus (Patrick Stump)]

just need to clear mind

dunno how to get things off my chest always coming out wrong i dont even know if i did the right descion to confess. i should of just ignore it from the beginning and pretend it never happen or wish i had some way of explaining things with out no one getting hurt sigh no i can do about it the deed is done!


ma______ (1:23:19 AM): why? h____ played the whole shit off
Cekococo (1:23:58 AM): huh? explain
ma______ (1:24:34 AM): he said we could've just told him
ma______ (1:26:04 AM): lol i dont think he understood how u feel upt to today
Cekococo (1:27:04 AM): he never will he said it wasnt fair cuz i was with d____ and k_____ so why cant he do the same
Cekococo (1:27:31 AM): the thing is he set me up with kadeem and with davidv i was depress because of him its not like i wanted to
Cekococo (1:28:21 AM): he doesnt understand how hurt i felt and how i try to do what ever to over come it
ma______ (1:28:46 AM): lol! jesus christ u serious? he's just confused like i said he'll never get it
Cekococo (1:28:48 AM): my poems are just expression of bent up angusih but he'll never knw thta
Cekococo (1:29:32 AM): if i was ever honest to him would of never believe so might as well and not waste my words
m_______ (1:30:03 AM): oh well ditch him chick it aint worth the pain!
Cekococo (1:30:17 AM): yea i knw

no sleep no eat but push my body to a new limit

Last night i had no sleep i was up until it was time for me to go to class from then on the peaceful nosies of my teacher lecture and class mates conversations finally knock me to sleep.
I certainly don't feel like my self nor do i feel better more like am going backwards in to that chamber i speak of long before. Chrystal came by my house she was so great at distracting me then my cat had a 7th sense that led to her comforting me and in my last class a girl name Gloria manage to make me crack out a laughter while another friend missy show sympathy.

Before i knew it i was back home in the gloomy house, sitting in the dark on my laptop listening to my chemical romance, bloc party, avenge sevenfold, and linking park.I had the guts to go to my computer folders and post up my angry poem. i know its lost its touch and i know its another side i never shown.

i was shock of my self but not surprise. these words came out when i was in the shower and not one tear came out but the heated water heating me up with the furious feeling deep in me. sigh, i told myself that i was done with dating and e close with people they don't deserve my offer and my final sign has came to bite me back in the butt.

I've picking up the Independence and strength to cut my thickish cord. i was surprise and yet better that there was no remorse but only regret i didn't do it earlier. I counted down the days to when my next line will be cut as time seems to pick up faster. my eyes has open again to see a different light a more duller color.

What i did when i couldn't sleep? i talked on the phone with my insomnia people and push my body to burn. *breath* 76 crunches and 32 push ups with out stopping. hoping that when my body drops at its limit. I couldn't sleep in my sweat and with the nagging truth to burn at the back of my skull. I couldn't eat till 20 mins before my class and it was two oreos that couldn't settle right. I fed the cat a little more then usual and read Detroit metal city with its dark humor.... i have set my self a new value and new thought. i realize my mistakes and see love no longer exist and both male and females don't deserve what they get. all i can wish now is the consequences on thoses who wrong me and i rest in peace with a new mind and a hard heart. Ms.envy green has become the new independent thats all i need to right now later.

FUCK

Fuck Exscuse my lanaugue but i got steam to blow, oh and here's a pic of my new hair