FML Three (to be cont.)

Great day to have your boyfriend break up with you and not understand you, your old friend wanting to commit suicide because of her abusive boyfriend and your mother to be very sick only to forget her medicine at the counter at a close 24/7 CVS store oh not to mention a confuse best friend who love and hate my male pal who has a girlfriend he doesn't love with his buddy feeling pressure from him to lose his virginity and to the girl that love him want him to lose his virginity to him also have my other best friend worry about her relationship to her boyfriend with a controlling family and my mother who feels i dont do much to help her in anyway while knowing that when i go to school am failing Spanish and reading a confusing book for English and laggin in my mathematical skills and having an old friend feel am not trusting because the day i wen tot the doctor and they gave me the gas i slip to a friend on the phone about her being pregnant and noticing her boyfriend another old friend give me ingorning vibes while his best friend who i compete for the title of green tutoring me in math for a SAT In Two weeks time to find out am slow in math and that i suck. Best part yet i got my encouraging grandma preventing me from leaving my mother and a ex-alcoholic uncle still drink once in awhile.With the fact that am worrying about getting in college since my applications were delay and i cant get a job. Wow my life is like so F***king amazing. Green me!!!

FML Twice

Words in my life could never explain i feel or went through.
Why does it have to be hard to explain to people about my self or to get them to understand. but then you see only yourself can know this feelings so why you cant share it with others. In life obstacles are put out for you to take down but then why cant you go around it? He see's what i go through and kinda gets what am saying but yet he just doesnt get what am coming from or wha am trying to tell him.

In existentialism the answers are beyond death but when i think that what are the answers i yearn for. i try to look past the neagativity or my life but i felt that it pulls me in to place. What is true happiness? he said only when you find your self and true happiness i'll come back to you but that make no sense since in life happiness comes with a price and when that price is given up whats there left then happinss.

am doing an experiment to vent out my toughts online i have but always miss the oppounity to vent or say what i want and could never say it again.