Russian Roulette in my Room -Song lyrics and my poems of today

Had another fight with my mom 3 times to day am so depressed!

Russian Roulette - Rihanna

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

[Chorus -- JustJared.com]
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost

(Chorus)

As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life

And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger



- my poem
thats the song lyrics,
playing over and over in my head,
tears are streaming no one to go
feeling the cold alone,
huddle in bed closing my eyes,
listening to this sweet lullaby,
lock in my room and as the sounds fill my room,
is how i get by,
my phone is dead, my laptop is black,
nothing for me to communicate,
today a event is held,
am still trap in this jailed,
thinking of how,
no one is there just make the pain
more unbearable,
thoughts in my head,
drill in the lyrics... i rather not say,
footstep cross my bed room door with hurting words,
i put the blanket over me,
and picture me in someone arms,
i cried harder with out speaking,
dreadful feelings, tearing hearts,
a hollow inside is build,
still so cold , with the bedroom close
the boiler banging, and the blanket over,
no one here its just me, just like those years
not a solid food has touch me today,
not a calming voice to heal my head,
reminded guilts and coward mind is all i have in this bed,
As the song is near to end... " just pull the trigger"
My eyes close in to a slumber sleep, the darkness erase time
and the abyss float me away with out tears.



Green me sad!